An experience with the Holy Spirit by Chinny Okafor
by Chinny Okafor:
Have you ever noticed those clouds that kinda bunch up together to form what looks like either a badly made crown or what I imagine the top of a volcano eruption would look like- without the volcano. They’re really close up together and have this beam of light in them that kinda looks like the sun is just sitting in that one conjunction of clouds. I have no idea how it happens and I refuse to find out-I don’t want the science of it to ruin this for me. It’s quite something.
On my way back from Ohio I’m gazing outside my window, half asleep, counting the hours till I’m back home, “When I lost my heart to You” by Hillsong on repeat. The sky so congested with huge white blankets of clouds that there’s almost no blue. I spot one of those sun-filled cloud clusters and I kinda just stare at it with the widest smile on my sore neck-supported face. How can the sun fit into just that bunch of clouds. I see another. Then another. I’m in tears at this point. How can clouds make me so emotional? But I’m not actually being emotional. My heart is happy. I’m crying because God is good. That’s it. How can a God with the entire world in His hands on one end be able to design such magnificent details into puffy white floaty thingys and on the other create every atom, bone, hair and muscle in my body? My little mind is too lazy to try to calculate how much goes into the functionality of our lives and surroundings. It makes me feel quite small. But at the same time quite big to be considered as the most special by the creator of all things beautiful. As I was going to start balling in awe of all that God is, He told me to write about everything my heart just experienced. So here I am.
SIDENOTE- as I write this my head is burning up. Gods hand is literally sitting on my head right now and I can physically feel the fire of the Holy Spirit on me. Ain’t that something!
I’m trying not to move my head around too much…
Anyway, back to the clouds. It started by a ray of sunshine hitting my hand. Kinda like God was saying “Hey look over here”. I stared at my hand for a minute and thought about how much longer I wanted my nails to be. Then I looked up and got lost. That’s how I ended up here. I guess as I study the sky and hope the rain doesn’t come and ruin this for me, my biggest concern is how long I can remain here. I know the Presence of the Lord is with me wherever I go but I also kinda just want to keep feeling this forever.
My head is still burning omg I’m in love!
Tomorrow will come. I’ll get up and the day will bring its worries. I’ll probably stare up into the sky in hopes that I’ll feel exactly what I’m feeling right now and it’s possible that nothing will happen. God isn’t a God of feelings and tingling sensations. While He does do that and they’re amazing (especially if you’re like me with and overactive imagination and almost need those kinds of experiences so you don’t convince yourself you made it all up *rolling my eyes at my stupid doubtful humanness* ) the Spirit inside of you is the realest part of you. Hold onto the beautiful moments like my cloud thingy that God gives you but remember that we operate in the spiritual.
To “contradict” *but not actually * what I just said- seek these random moments with God where He speaks to you by showing you something you see daily, placing His hand on your head, or whatever He chooses. I think He looks forward to our moments like these. I’ll continue to seek them too.
*PS my head is on actual FIREEEE wow!
Chinny Okafor is a 22 year old Christian Youtuber. She enjoys reading, laughing, ice cream, long intentional conversation, praying & worship. She dislikes cheese. Her hobbies are singing, dancing when no one is watching, watching Netflix, and sleeping. She also loves writing and making worship songs. Check out her YouTube channel here. Follow her on Twitter & Instagram: @ChinnyOh