My Depression

Have you ever been labeled as a strong person? It’s like a blessing with a curse, almost like thick hair. It’s a great trait to have, but it makes me feel as though I need to do everything on my own. Earlier this year, I was going through something. I didn’t know what it was, I just knew that I was not feeling like myself.I was not feeling like myself and I waited almost a month before saying anything to anyone, because I thought it was just a mood that would blow over in a few days. I finally said something because I was tired of being tired, I wasn’t feeling me, I was so distant from God.

So I finally decided to tell someone:

“I feel so weird idk like so out of character. I’ve been so irritable and impatient. I’ve been avoiding my friends and social interactions as much as I can. I feel like so tired/drained. Idk it’s been like this since before spring break. I feel like I’m just going through it & im gonna break down any minute. I mean it’s better now after break but before I talked to you before break I would just be walking around on the verge of tears bc idk….I would really appreciate if you would pray for me.”

The response was what I wasn’t hoping for, but something I was thinking about:

“You are depressed…You nailed all the symptoms.”

Depression is real and it happens to a lot of people. It’s hard to go through, hard to talk about, and hard to treat. For me, it was one of those things that I heard about, but never thought it would happen to me so when it did, I didn’t know what to do. If you think that you may be depressed or know someone that may be depressed, please seek help. There’s nothing wrong with asking for help. That’s something I’m still learning. It’s better to ask for help early on, than later when it gets too much. 

After seeking help, pray about it. You may not think that you can pray it away, and that’s okay, but ask God to give you divine strength and a peace that passes all understanding every single day. 

Find ways to uplift your spirit daily. I started putting positive notes and bible verses around me, so I’m constantly being uplifted and reminded of the good things in my life. The video I attached was one I recorded when I was going through my depression. Music helped uplift my spirit. Daily motivation gives you a reason to wake up every morning.

Lastly, find an accountability partner. Someone you can trust and talk to at any time. Ask them to check up on you from time to time, just to make sure you’re “okay”. 

These are just some things that helped me. Months later, I feel better than before. I’m not going to say I’ve completely gone back to myself, because I still have some times where I feel the same way I did months ago. But I’m still choosing joy, daily. 

If you need prayer, advice, or words of encouragement, please contact me.